Goodbye, Hello is a series of letters written by me as I reflect on the past month and ponder about the upcoming month. Read the letter of last month here.
you have been filled with excitement and jam-packed with unexpected pieces of wisdom that I will always keep in mind.
I was torn between "If it's meant to be it will happen" and "If you want it, go get it" and I am still figuring out which one to follow. I don't think I will ever find the right solution. And maybe there is no right solution after all.
I got busy dealing with the mess that people who shouldn't matter in my life made that I forgot to take care of the true friendships. It was a mistake that I hope I'll never make again. It's not only a waste of time but also unnecessary drain of energy. Which is why I started to reconnect with old friends. And it did happen quite naturally as we found each other again during tough times. Hanging out with my best friends was a huge thing for me this month, too. There's nothing better than good distraction, nice talks and much laughter.
Another thing I realised was how I shouldn't cry over the same thing twice. There's just so much time for dwelling on the negativity of the bad things in life. And there are many reasons to just move on.
On the more positive side, you consisted of the first time I ever looked for an apartment for my own and learned what to look for. (Read what I learned about moving out for the first time here.)
I spent hours in days reading through many new lovely comments on "To Ethan", feeling special and grateful and pretty damn lucky.
After months, I finally started to follow my resolution for the year which was: eating healthy. I am not resisting eating meat or anything but I've been much healthier and oh, do I feel good!
I dyed my hair for the first time which was kind of a sign of change and new beginnings for me. The color is only a little lighter but it's a big enough change for me.
A song that kept playing in my head, plus on Spotify, was Coming Over by James Hersey which made me really happy for some reason.
This was just another month where I broke another charger of mine. It happens every time. And there are probably many more times to come.
Ultimately, can I just say that I am extremely proud because LOVE WINS?
I hope you will have more experiences, bad or good, accompany me throughout the month. I hope you'll make finding an apartment easier than it is right now. May all the effort and back and forth driving be worth it in the end. I cannot wait for my new life on my own to start.
From the girl who waited so long for summer,